my thoughts~

无名英雄

2010-10-23T06:22:00.003+08:00

人生总充满无奈，因为它凡事像硬币般拥有正反两面。

人总特意专注它的正面，而忽视它的反面，可是忽略不代表它不存在。

我小时候，很怕小丑，被那时畅行的鬼怪影片误导了。。

长大了，才了解小丑的伟大，

舞台上，华丽的服装，浓郁的彩妆，滑稽的动作，不断的自嘲来娱乐大家。

脸上总挂着灿烂的笑容，仿佛是精灵化成的人，没有忧愁，只有欢乐。

曲终人散，之前还是大明星，现在成了无人问津的小人物……

冷清的后台，孤独的身影，卸下了欢乐的面具，露出脸上的沧桑，

独自承受着，像佛陀顿悟，迅间喜悦后，随之而来的空虚，感受着众人皆醉我独醒那份孤独，依然喜悦，但未免惆怅……

小丑，把欢乐留给人们后，每每独自承受高潮低谷落差的洗礼，人生无奈，莫过于此……

我问小丑：对人欢笑背人愁的工作，干脆不干了。

他说：有时，人活着的价值，是在于他为别人付出了多少，我辛苦半天，换来了千万人开心的一天，太值得了。:)况且辛苦可以让人成长，男人大丈夫，怕什么！

看着这无名英雄苦涩的笑容，我在心里，对他致上崇高的敬意。

朋友，时常注意你身边的这些无名英雄，没有他们默默的付出，或许你我的人生，就没那么的顺利了。如果有一天，你成为了身边的人的无名英雄，切记：人在做时天在看，懂得舍时就是得~

*献给所有艺术表演者，都市幕后的小人物，和身在福中不知福的现代人 ^^

学而知不足

2010-10-12T07:12:00.002+08:00

人不断的成长，需要不断的学习，

越使劲的学习，越觉得学海无涯。

在知识的渊博前，我突然觉得我好渺小。。。

人类几千年的文明，几万年的进化，在宇宙的面前，眨眼间就过了。。。

人类为地图上豆般小的土地，争夺杀掠了许久，为宇宙所不耻。

对宇宙而言，地球充其量只是堆成泰山的沙粒的其中一粒沙而已。。。

对我而言，人类现在只不过是打开文明之门，要达到文明还有很长很长的路得走，不过，我们舍弃了对未来美好的追求，甘心为欲望和权利的奴隶，为眼前短暂的快乐而自相残杀，我为我们的无知羞愧。

我们还以为我们非常了不起~

对小，我们连细菌都不甚了解；对大，我们连太阳系多大都无法确定。

我们还在为不断伤害同类和地球而沾沾自喜，现在为了个钓鱼台而要死要活。。。

我们也应该醒了吧！钓鱼台是地球人的，而不是谁的。。连地球都保不住了，要个钓鱼台来做什?

pressure

2010-09-26T04:59:00.002+08:00

pressure, for most people, its might be a terrible thing, most of us we dont want to have it. but its always exist in our daily life, when the time we wake up until night, pressure from family, others, working, friends, partner n etc. pressure do make people sick, and some time its killed...

surprisingly is, most pressure create by ourselves, we tend to help others to judge us, other people might didn't have such a thought. so we keep on add on pressure for ourselves, and for me, i call this is slowly suicide.

i always see the other side of things, pressure is a good, u try to imagine, what will it gonna be happen to the world now if there is no pressure? all people slowing down, laying on bed after waking up, not willing to work or does any improvement to their life.. ya, exactly we wont have the world we are having now, mankind will less civilize after all.

every thing have their good point, pressure somehow is a force which forcing us to improve, so when some one feel that he or she is in high pressure or even no pressure, these are tragedy...

and u know what? i think i am in this situation whereby i cant feel pressure exist for few years already. walao! i am in great danger!!! having no improvement at all for few years is killing me! i really cant accept it..

now i am the only person who can help myself.. lost my vision for few years time, i hope i can find the way out and set a clear goal for future.. T.T

~夜~

2010-05-16T04:11:00.001+08:00

黑夜，
宁静，
独处，
太过迷人了。
我深怕我会情不自禁的爱上这样的一个黑夜。

繁文世俗，束缚了我的思想，
让我无法不顾一切的沉醉在我爱的国度。
太痛心，
太累了，
活在束缚内，
偶尔的放纵，也感到无比罪恶，
我快窒息了。
难道我就无法自由活着吗？
为什么有那么多人喜欢对人类的思想灵魂强加上枷锁？
被缚的人生，太可悲了。

唯有在宁静的夜，
唯有在所有人进入了梦乡，
唯只有我一人清醒时，
才感觉到，
至少在这一刻，
‘我’
确实活着。。

坚持~ sharing~

2010-05-03T23:04:00.000+08:00

前头的路，
不知多长多么苦，
看不到，
走了一步算一步。
雨水若下，
已经淋湿我衣裤，
这阵风，
只是让我的心更加坚强。
成功的背后，
不知有多少苦楚，
我所选的路，
一定坚持到成功！
坚定的心伴我向前走，
请你要记住我的名，
有人出世就好命，
我是用命在打拼。
不怕失败慢慢向前走，
命运不是天注定，
只要用心来打拼，
一定唱出我的名～

a song i like the most, so i translate it in chinese~ share with u all~^^

唱很多题目的人•是谁也比不过的

2010-04-27T20:39:00.000+08:00

苦不堪言的时候就唱百万遍题目吧！有勇气的去展开实践，我会送题目给大家，你们也要认真唱题。送报机再怎么优越，收报机坏了也不会有作用。

在自己的生活或生命上有任何烦恼的话，何不堂堂地，悠悠地挑战百万遍的题目试试，亲身来体验看看，到底会有怎样的结果。因为证据胜过理论，只是空想会这样，会那样，毫无意义。

去跟御本尊谈。唱完题目时，全部将变毒为药，转变成福运。所以不管今天处在多么痛苦的境遇，按佛法的原理，咬紧牙关去奋战，将会拓展几倍，几十倍，几百倍的阔野，又走不下去时，再去拓展，如此周而复始。

那时，不可忘记题目！全部都可解决。但不好好唱题时，在漫长的人生里将会变得非常困恼。能够唱时就尽量的唱，题目就是储金，就是充电。

人都会面临种种的苦恼。当意外发生时，有唱题的人和没唱题的人会出现很明显的不同。有唱题的人可以变毒为药，没唱题的人将堕入地狱的深渊。佛道修行中，最简单的事就是唱题，最困难的事也是常唱题。
高兴时唱题，悲伤时也唱题，挑战时候更要唱题。

人生一切活动的泉源就是唱题。这正是大圣人佛法的精髓！

伤人的话语

2010-04-27T20:32:00.002+08:00

话语比行为更能伤害人，因为话语不会消失，它们老是萦绕在人的脑海中，挥之不去，就像它刚刚说出来的时候一样（甚至更加）伤人的心。

身体的疼痛只会是一时的，刚开始可能疼得让人难以忍受，可它最终还是会消失，过了很久以后，我们回想起身体所受的伤害时，好像再也感受不到当初的那种痛苦了。然而，伤人的话与精神上的伤害紧紧相连，只要一想起那些让我们伤心的话，我们就会觉得感情又一次受到了伤害。

“不要说让你后悔的话！”这是一条多好的忠告，充满了睿智。爸爸教导我们一定要管住自己的嘴巴，不要说出伤人的话。
我们每一个人都应当为自己的言行负责。如果不好好管住自己的嘴巴，婚姻可能被一气之下脱口而出的话整个儿毁掉，家庭可能会因此而分崩离析，再也没法挽回。

说过的话如覆水难收。它们会一直停留在脑海中，时间也不能抹去这些话语造成的伤害。

word like a sword, its might use to protect people or hurt people.. so do be more careful when use it, don regret after spoken, because u already hurt the person who heard it.. be aware of this~ ^^

sharing~

2010-04-27T20:26:00.002+08:00

人的一生是奋斗的一生，如果失去了奋斗，生命就失去了意义，人生也缺少了激情。古语有云：“若非一番寒彻骨，哪得梅花扑鼻香。”因此，不经过一番傲霜立雪的艰苦奋斗，就无法开出娇艳的花朵，更结不出丰硕的果实。而不惧挑战勇于奋斗者，才能开辟出个人独具特色的道路，走向成功的殿堂！

西奥多•帕克是美国历史上颇具影响力的人物，为推动美国社会发展作出了巨大贡献。在美国，只要一提起“西奥多•帕克”这个名字，几乎是家喻户晓，妇孺皆知。然而，鲜为人知的是，他的奋斗历程比其他人都艰难。

西奥多•帕克是一边做农活，一边自学，最终考上哈佛大学的。由于家庭原因，在念大学的时候，他还得继续坚持自学。但是完成学业时，他的成绩比谁都出色。通过他的奋斗历程可以看出，他能够取得成功的一条重要原因，是因为他时刻争取机会。如果不是这样，他恐怕连书都读不到。

8月的一个下午，西奥多•帕克与父亲一起在地里做农活。帕克突然说：“爸爸，我想在明天参加哈佛大学一年一度的新生入学考试。”帕克的父亲是莱克星顿一位没多大本事的水车木匠，由于家里穷，他没能供儿子上学读书。为此，他感到十分惭愧。他知道，儿子虽然没能进学校读书，却一直在自学，而且非常用心，梦想有一天能考入一所名牌大学。一直以来，他很佩服也非常支持儿子的做法，但在经济上无法给予援助，于是答应这个要求。

第二天，帕克起得很早，风尘仆仆地走了10英里路，赶到了哈佛学院。一路走来，他回想着从小到大的读书经历。从8岁那年开始，他就因为家里穷失去了上学的机会。但是，他想方设法赚钱买书，或者借小伙伴的，抓紧时间来读。
他特别懂得珍惜时间，无论是在做活儿、玩耍，还是在走路，甚至睡觉的时候，他都一遍一遍地在脑海里默默地回忆和背诵学过的知识。最后，学过的所有知识都被他背得滚瓜烂熟，同时也十分透彻地理解了它们。

有一次，他在书店里看到一本好书。他非常渴望拥有它，于是在夏天的一个早上，背着箩筐来到原野里采摘浆果。然后，他把这些浆果送到波士顿去卖，用换来的钱买到了那本渴望已久的书。还有……
想到这些，帕克告诉自己：这次考试，只许成功，不准失败！后来揭榜那天，他果然名列前茅。当天回家，帕克把好消息告诉了父亲。“我的孩子，你真是好样的！”水车木匠拍手叫道，“可是，我没有钱供你到哈佛读书啊！”帕克笑着说：“爸爸，您不用担心。我不会搬到学校去住，只要利用家里的空闲时间来自学就够了。只要通过考试，我就能拿到一张学位证书。那样，什么都好办了！”
后来，帕克成功地做到了这一点，以优异的成绩回报了自己和支持他的亲人。

日月如梭，时光飞逝，当年读不起书的那个小男孩如今成为了一代风云人物。作为著名的废奴运动倡导者和社会改革家，作为国务卿西沃德、首席大法官蔡斯、著名参议员萨姆纳、著名教育家贺拉斯•曼、废奴协会主席温德尔•菲利普斯等人的密友和事业顾问，西奥多•帕克如今在整个美国的影响力是不可估量的。
直至今天，帕克回忆起童年在莱克星顿的岩石上和灌木丛中争分夺秒地刻苦学习的情景，仍会感到无限的温馨与快乐，同时也觉得无比的充实。

西奥多•帕克虽然家境贫寒、出身卑微，但他时刻不忘努力学习、开拓进取，利用一切机会进行创造，因此，他最终踏上了成功之路！

看到西奥多•帕克成功的例子，对于出生在当今时代，家庭环境无比优越的我们来说，又作何感想呢？努力拼搏吧，具备优越的条件并不是最大的优势，只有艰苦奋斗，努力争当生活中的霸者，我们才会有所建树，获得成功！

we are more fortunate than a lot of people out there, so stop complain n keep striving, one day, we confirm can achieve what we dream of if we are hard working enough.. remember, all great people also born with nothing, but they create every thing in their life. we might be nobody now, but we will be somebody one day!!!

何谓清明？＝清澈明亮？

2010-04-06T18:44:00.000+08:00

每到这个拜祭祖先的日子，我都会想起那个有趣的笑话：
你们知道阎王最讨厌谁吗？阎王啊，他最讨厌我们华人了～因为每每有拜祭的节日，我们就烧一大笔伪钞下冥府，让冥界的钱大大贬值，搞到阎王都头大！ ^^

好了，笑话就酱，真正我要讲的是，我们烧了这么多东西，到底先人有没有收到？先人都还没收到，我们的空气先一步污染了，未见其利，先见其弊。

千古名诗也得改一改了：清明时节烟纷纷，熏得路人眼难睁～

各国信仰文化的不一样，也有被我们参考的地方，西方国家的人不烧‘冥钱’，难道就说他们的祖先在冥界都很穷了？那冥界到底存不存在呢？这我们得好好的去思考，也见仁见智。

那清明不烧些金钱物质给祖先，我们清明干吗？清明节，真正目的是为了让我们这些下一代后人缅怀先祖和提醒我们要饮水思源，感恩先人的贡献，扫扫墓，让活着的人尽些孝心，也从而让自己安心。现代，也有了让一家族人聚在一起的机会。

对我而言，只要达到以上的目的，其他都是多余的。烧再多的东西，也只让环境更污染而没有任何好处。人类对未知的东西，充满了恐惧，总编了许多故事来解释，让自己心安，对于死亡后的世界，人类一无所知，所以许多人宁愿迷信以前留传下来的故事，在科讯发达的今天，还愚昧的重复以前文化的弊病。只要多用逻辑思考，就不难发现许多我们一路来的迷信，在现今世界，只有弊无利。当然，要有视破迷信的能力，需要有广阔的心胸视野和正确的观念，这些都需要一个正确的宗教来磨炼我们。正确的宗教需要有可以教导我们以宇宙之大来看我们自己，以人本主义来看世界的基本条件～

life Marathon..

2010-03-28T18:45:00.002+08:00

just imagine if we all on the same marathon competition, not to compete who going to win this marathon but to compete with ourselves, try to breakthrough our limit..

i remember when i start this race, i only can walk slowly and there is a man and a woman walk with me and support me, those are our mom and dad, feel so fresh and so happy because i am new on this race, when i feel tired, either one of them will carry me with them, take care of what i worried, so i only concentrate on growing~

time flies, when we start to learn how to run and compete in this race, we start to make a lot of new friends, we are having fun in a big group, din really care what is there waiting for us in future or the end of this race. but what distressing is, we slowly forget those who support and carry us for the past track, they might not that strong any more, as we become stronger, they become older, very soon they cant even follow our foot step, do we really does care? some time may be.. but no matter what, one day, they have to leave this track, because they already complete their race.. so, is it we can quit too? unfortunately nope, our race haven finish yet..

in this race, there is so many different path and different type of people surrounding us, no matter what decision we made, there is always changes in the distance between we and others. we might left behind by those people who walk pass us when we rest, we might met some people then have to separate when we chosen different path, some special one might accompany us longer.. there is so many people which we can only see them once in our race, so here occur a word say: "timing", do appreciate those who met us on the right timing and right feeling, because the path in this race is like a maze, we dont know if we missed it, when we going to meet up or not at all..

slowly by getting longer on this race, we can see a lot of people giving up, quit, fall, stop, and lost.. although we dont even know what is the prize for complete this race, but we do know one thing clear, there is a terminus for every one.. so if we know clearly this is a fact, why some people choose give up earlier? why not we just make our race become more fun, make more friends and try more new things?

so, to all my dear friends, in a life marathon, there is always a terminus there, if we cant change it, then why not we change the process of our race? make it fun, make it amazing or fantastic~ ^^

at last, thanks for accompany me on this race~ :)

TNB to sue WWF over earth hour!

2010-03-26T23:25:00.002+08:00

Take a look at the title...shocking? TNB wants to sue WWF over Earth Hour. Biggest joke ever. I used to kinda support TNB because they supply us the electric. Simple as that. Without electricity, i wont be able to online everyday and sleep with fans and lights to study. Now, after reading this news, i start to change my mind and take the other road instead.....

TNB president and CEO Dato’ Sri Che Khalib Mohd Noh said “So there’ll be more lights turned off. KL alone would be engulfed in darkness. Yes, sure, it may seem fun to some, running around in complete darkness. But that also means TNB would get less money. Tell me, what am I supposed to say to the kids of this electrical technician when we can’t give bonus this year?” asked Che Khalib, as he pointed to a TNB staff manning the lights for the Press conference. He added, “In light of such inconsiderate actions by these tree huggers, TNB has no choice but to take legal action against the Earth Hour organisers, WWF. We’ll wait for our accountants to come back with the loss figure after this year’s Earth Hour, and we plan to sue them for that same amount. We may even add a hundred million ringgit or so, to teach them a lesson.”“See this? See how ugly, gloomy and dark the last picture is? God knows how many people tripped over things and hurt themselves in the complete darkness, not to mention the number of bad people going around doing naughty things, knowing the authorities could not see them.

“Let’s reverse the order of these pictures this year, and fight for the rights to our lights,” continued Che Khalib. “Let’s unite as 1Malaysia, and tell these green terrorists that we will not go dark! We will not switch off! Let’s tell them that we love our lights!

Take a look at the bold words. I got to admit that i do think that some of the reasons given by the TNB CEO cannot be accepted. I support the Earth Hour campaign because i love the earth! We live in this earth, should do our part to embrace our world. I do not understand why TNB CEO is so money minded. They are the ones who supply the whole Malaysia the electricity and how much they earned already for these years! Not to forget, they are the ones who monopoly this ''business''. Those millions they lost mean nth to them. They just want to make a big fuss out of it. sigh. The most unbearable to read is the part where the CEO used the 1malaysia concept to urge all malaysians to not switch off the lights. By switching off the lights for 1 hour, we can save so much and also also to be able to cool down the earth temperature. The TNB CEO himself is staying in this very earth and dont you think that he is way too selfish to think bout the others? All he talked bout in his speech was money,money and money...revenue...loss....He added that with the 1 hour darkness, bad ppl will go around doing naughty things...Harlo..... Mr!! Even with the lights on, robbery, snatch thieves, killing etc all those criminal cases still happened. Please do not just give all those nonsense reasons just for the sake of saying them. What is wrong being someone who loves the mother nature? Is it stupid for us to support this campaign and also support WWF just because we have our own stands that we should protect our earth? Why cant he just put a side those money issue and start to think what have he really done to save our earth? Perhaps too money minded ppl might somehow destroy their own home......

* although it might be a fake news but i am still choose to believe it~ cz i really believe malaysian will do some stupid thing like this~ ^^ haha~

上帝的延迟，并不是上帝的拒绝 ------林肯

2010-03-23T23:23:00.002+08:00

有一个人，他在21岁时，做生意失败，22岁时，角逐州议员落选，24岁时，做生意再次失败，26岁时，爱侣去世。

27岁时，一度精神崩溃，34岁时，角逐联邦众议员落选，36岁时，角逐联邦众议员再度落选，45岁时，角逐联邦参议员落选。47岁时，提名副总统落选。

49岁时，角逐联邦参议员再度落选，52岁时，当选美国第十六任总统。

这个人就是林肯，因为他坚信上帝的延迟，并不是上帝的拒绝，因此能屡败屡战，最终成就非凡！

every one can make a different in this world, before u capable to achieve some thing, there is always a lot of obstacle block our way. only if u can stick to your path, believe in yourself, and keep striving to the end no matter how hard it is, then u will able to achieve what ever dreams u want!!! never give up dude, although u cant see the sun shine now, but the sun still there, u only need to wait till the dark cloud disappear~ ^^

“為何設皇委會查我？”‧安華感費解

2010-03-23T20:21:00.002+08:00

（吉隆坡）國會反對黨領袖拿督斯里安華表示，他對巴西馬獨立議員依布拉欣阿里建議國會設立一個皇家調查委會調查他，感到費解。
他指出，全國總警長丹斯里慕沙哈山之前揭露有第三者插手警方內務，而國防部長拿督斯里阿末扎希也透露有軍官泄露國家情報機密，這些都是危害國家安全的課題。
“我很奇怪為何政府對這些課題沒有採取行動，包括國家面對的貪污、罪案，卻要設一個皇家調查委員會來調查我？”
安華週一（3月22日）在其他民聯領袖的陪同下在國會召開新聞發佈會。
詢及他的肛交案進展時，陪同出席記者會的公正黨總秘書賽夫丁指出，人民有權知道安華涉及的肛交案真相，所以即使黨印發小冊子派發給全民，也不至於被指藐視法庭。
他說，黨已印好了100萬份小冊子，內容根據吉隆坡中央醫院的3名醫生提供的醫藥報告。有關報告指沒有醫學證據證明賽夫的肛門有被插入的跡象。
詢及此舉會否造成藐視法庭，他表示，等有人挑起這課題再說。
【熱點新聞：國會專輯】
星洲日報‧2010.03.23

i don thk that d leaders of Malaysia nowadays know what they are doing.. wasting their time n our resources to investigate on some small issue which doesnt have any effect on helping our country economy or the people, they are trying to misdirect our focus and protecting their own fame and wealth~ i really cant tahan liao!!!
Malaysian is growing more clever day by day, but why those leaders still think they can fool us around like it used to be~ time is change, this is our Malaysia, not urs or whom, is belong to all Malaysian!!!
so if u want to be a good leader which all people support u, please show us some real action by understanding and reducing our living problems!!!

can we survive if we dont talk at all?

2010-03-19T23:38:00.002+08:00

may be.. although experts said 93% of our communication is using non verbal, only 7% depends on verbal communication~ but still i will be crazy if i not allow to talk at all. only my own feeling, no offence for those really cant talk..

talking is to express our feeling and keep conversation flow around us~ do remember i am talking about conversation face to face, not chat online. i not felt any fun by chat online beside can know updates about our friends recent living, but still its like not a complete communication.. ><

face to face conversation is fun, we can see the changes on others movement and emotion ~ some friends who have talent to act even more entertaining~ ^^

but some how, talking to people we just meet for the first time, still need a lot of courage and skill, perhaps i can say i am trying hard to improve it, its necessary for me to master this skill in order to achieve my dreams~

wish all of u can also master skill of communication well, this will help to reduce a lot of unnecessary mistake and problems in our life~ good luck~

mission of life..

2010-03-17T07:34:00.002+08:00

2 days ago, a friend of my just pass away, just cant accept the news when chen wei call me on the afternoon.. although i know he had been suffer for cancer for quite some time, but still cant accept he leave us so sudden..

i know him on 2006 year end, in a acad v meeting, i remember that time i ask him to join gymnastic in our SGM, because he also join before at kedah. then we have a great chance to work together when there is a merdeka performance on 2007, he does help me a lot on that time, although he is honbu 1 member, but always help me to fetch my honbu 2 members, he always that nice n smile like a sunny guy. we were having a fun time on that performance~

we din meet up after he move back to kedah.. one day in end of 2008, i receive a call from chen wei that he in hospital penang because of cancer, i got no idea what is going on.. so directly go visit him in hospital, he got an tumor on his neck n condition become worst so need to stay in hospital, but he told me he had recover from a cancer before, so ask us don need to worry. i go to hospital accompany him few days, although i know he feel really pain some time, but he always relief me by telling me he is alright. he is a tough guy, i feel so sad when i cant do any thing else to help him. he have once tell me he wan to give up already, because there is too suffer, not only for himself and also people around him,i donno what to tell him beside encourage him to chant..

since then, we only met once on hai long wedding dinner on last year end, he seem alright and i tell him i will go find him when i pay a visit to kedah, but this become the last word i talk to him. now every thing only become memory..

we die because of mission of our life is accomplish? may be.. but i believe sao gang still have a lot of dreams haven accomplish in his life, but his does influence a lot of people to become toughen..

miss u always, sao gang! our buddha..

future

2010-03-09T17:44:00.002+08:00

i don know since when i start to think of my future.. i have think, worried, predicted, plan on future, but if future is unpredictable, then why am i doing all of these? is it i think too much? worried too much?

some time its really confusing, and most of the time, i feel upset of staying in a position between future n past.. gosh.. i want to know my future no so damn much, because my past keep telling me i am a loser, i always messed thing up. but i really try hard to change, to improve~ why cant i own a better future, right? feel so lost, i thought i know where n what i should do n achieve, but its really feel uncomfortable when i am going to make those moves.. first step is hard, i really hope the others can be easier.

when i getting older, i start to worry more before making any decision, not really scared of failure, but i really do afraid that i don hv much time to turn back after made wrong decision, may be i can give it a try, but i know i don have much bullets left for try shot, if i miss those, i might not have chance to go for my dream any more. its horrible when think of failure..

any way, life march on, i have no idea what will going to be in future, i only can do now is do the best i can, strive with no regret! gosh~ failure! fuck off! nothing stop me to achieve what i want!

men's rhythmic gymnastic

2010-03-08T20:19:00.003+08:00

after practicing gymnastic for some time, start to love this sport. from the beginning i am just learn it because i like sport, for performance and i wish i can teach my members in my society. after quite some time i into this field, i start to feel glad that i have chance to train this sport~

gymnastic is not that similar to other sport, its require a lot of balancing and control of our body. using whole body muscle and flexibility to do some stunt.. and its really need a lot of strength doing those move~

men's rhythmic gymnastic is a new group competition for men's gymnast~ its require all skill in gymnastic, some dance move and whole routine is following music~ its fun and will be a great performance after we mastered it, n which i feel suit us for future development. we have been through a few training after the we asking our gymnastic coach train us for tat, its new n tough, using few different part of muscle which we not used it often in daily life, so its kindna tough when beginning, the muscle-ache after training will remain few days. besides, doing skill and move with music rhythm is hard n tiring..

although it is so tough, but i know all these will worthwhile when we realize our improvement in future~ we even got chance to go japan for competition if we are good enough, and we can be the first batch who bring up this sport in Malaysia ~ its fun when we have a lot of unknown challenges waiting us in future~ mystery make life unpredictable and fun~ ^^

girl

2010-03-07T13:16:00.002+08:00

there is so much fun when looking at a pretty girl for a guy~

jz met a girl which i met few years ago in a gathering, phew~ she change a lot, not really the exterior i mean, its the feeling when i saw her. can say that now she know how to take care of her appearance n become more femininity.. cool~ this is y people always say:" girl will change after grow up~"

i think this is so true~ but really feel happy that many girls nowadays know how to make themselves become more charm, do u know how joyful we are when guy have chances to look at pretty girl?

i am not saying guy only like pretty girl.. i mean some how we are created to use our eye more than our brain~~ sorry for girls, we used to judge girl by their appearance at first. ^^

but i really agree with a quote: there is no ugly women in this world, only have lazy women. :)

don become a robot!!!

2010-03-06T14:25:00.003+08:00

last night having a gathering with a bunch of high school students, from the meet, i found out that most of the students nowadays afraid of speaking and share their ideas in public..

we as organizer, we which to organize a meeting which is joyful, relax, having two way conversation and knowledge sharing in between us (old generation) n those high school students (new generation), but out of my expectation, most of them are really shy to talk.. of cause i know its hard to bring out the courage to share our thought in public, but i really hope to train up a bunch of youth which really can make it, having self determination n develop thought or thinking which belong to their own. not some robot which create by our lousy education system..

most of thoughts n behavior we hv today too reliable n influence by our culture, education n experience in the past. this affect the teenager now dont even know wat they want in their life, we live a life not we wanted, is a life wat the society n others want us to live, dont u feel this is pity? dont u ever think about it? why? why we cant have our own lovely life we want? why we need to concern so much of others sight of view?

back to the topic, so why public sharing so horrible?

we ourselves is the one who make sharing in public so horrible. we have no confident on our thoughts, we always judge before we tell others our idea, we scare people will criticize us, people dislike or disagree our thought. hey! u will never know unless u speak it out~!!! so why haven fight for it, already made a prediction on the result?

doesnt matter who is around u, they are elder or professional, is not important, sharing is to tell others your thoughts, there is no another 'you' in this world with same face n thinking, u might have some knowledge others dont know, or u have ur own sight of view which is particularly own by u~

so don be a robot~ u must think wat u want, wat u need, wat u gonna do.. not other ask u to talk this u talk this, others tell u to think like this, u just follow.. ends up, u become another him or her.
copy n paste learning wont create a human mind, only program u become a robot! remember, live ur own life!!!

mankind

2010-02-17T03:37:00.003+08:00

this post not represent all man in this world, i only express my feeling toward myself.. ^^

when i saw a pretty girl, i hope i can be her boy friend(almost every time~ ) if i didn't take any action to further our relationship, we (almost every time) become friends... then i will meet another pretty one which i can forget about the past n try to be 'friend' with her again~ this cycle never end..

i know courage always play a big role here.. but i tends to forget it when face to face meeting with girls.. love is blind, so i become blind when i feel i am falling in love with some one, but who will going to love a guy with closing eye.. gosh~

conclusion, i fail because i meet, then i think n think n think n think n no action.. so i try to meet another one, then i think again, think again n donno how to take action...
so to avoid this bad cycle continue, i should meet, then don think, just action, action n action~ haha~ then i think love not only make people blind n also making a lot of fool like me~ ^^ haha~

gamble

2010-02-17T03:24:00.002+08:00

CNY.. always is the best time to meet up with all frenz n gambling, after few days for keep on gamble, i totally feel sick about it.. i hate gambling with friends~!!!

gamble is a game which dig out our greedy desire, all people become selfish n greedy, gambling with friends is even worst.. because wining friends money make us feel bad, losing to them make us feel worst.. so there is still no win win situation..

for me, gambling always is fun where in the progress, when heart beats increase, when all people start involve in, when there is no way we got to know is it we can win next round, the curiosity toward the unknown result~ there is always so fun when we doesn't know what will happen next~

at last, hate gambling with friends + gambling amount is too small~!!! there is no way i going to gambling with only RM0.10 bet on the table!!! this is wasting my time~ actually i just experience it, and this cost me 3 hours to lose around a ringgit.. its not only waste my time, my energy, my concentration, and this no point at all~

che 3 outing~

2010-02-17T03:01:00.002+08:00

every year eh che 3, we fix to have a CL team outing~ ( CL = cheng lan) this year ofcz nth change, we go again for bukit merah~ but this time we go earlier than last year, unexpected is CL master oso reach our gather spot on time, because he is the one last year late almost 3 hours to find stupid contact lens shop on che 3~

so we have plenty of time to enjoy all water sport there, this year is different, we invite those CL girls to join us oso~ really different~ some time, gathering n outing will be more fun when having girls around~ (dont say i am chi ko, but this is my and all man's real feeling!!!) ^^

actually i had a stupid desire to met a girl which i met last year in here, bukit merah.. last year i didnt really take action to take her contact, this really do bother me a while.. haih..

but any way, this time the trip is more fun after all~ i play crazily with all those CL guy~

i wonder if i n a girl become good frenz de, izzit i lose the chance to chase her n ask her become my girlfriend? may be LOVE need timing, i missed it last time, now she no longer can be mine.. so sad.. when i look at her, i always question myself, y i didnt take any action last time, why? beside regret, what can i do? i am really a loser in relationship..

keep thinking of her, since meet up with her again.. haih, feel so headache now.. hate the feeling when i miss some one who didnt know and miss me.. may be some one is right, why start it if it wont hv any result..

tired + sad T.T

Chinese new year~

2010-02-14T12:11:00.002+08:00

feel so different this year~ for all of u, although nothing much different compare to previous CNY, but for me, CNY become a celebration which i can meet up with all old buddy who not living or working in pg, really happy to hv fun again with all of them~ may be is because old de, so start to appreciate the moment meeting our old friends..
or may be after grow up n working de, so very hard to hv chance to meet up, so really appreciate every moment meet up with them..
feel so relax now, first day of CNY~ after last few night of crazy celebration with friends~ finally can rest n stay at home de..
just now my brother ask me when wanna go my relative there 'pai nian'? i donno how to replay him.. because i really lazy to go out la... feel tired to move my ass out of the chair infront of my computer... hehe.. so weird, izzit ang pow no longer attract me? cham.. ><
plan to rest in 1st n 2nd days in CNY, then start to hv all activities with friends until week end~ cant wait for tat~ ^^

awaken~

2010-01-17T21:07:00.002+08:00

although been through a lot of things in past few years, but i still not satisfy with the outcome, 'i can be much more better than that' this thought is always pop up in my mind these days~

in just a blink of eye, i am now living in the year 2010~ this year is really a meaningful year which i really don't want to waste it.. i always defeated by my laziness in the past few years, now is time to 'wake up', life is that short which i cant afford to lose any more time on it..

this year need to strictly achieve my personal revolution and go all out to challenge every single challenges which i will meet~!!! this is the year for me to write down my first victory report, and its the beginning for every years victory~!!!

if we want to gain victory in every single moment, we need to defeat n control our biggest enemy in our life! which is we ourselves, only by overcome our weak points then only can say we already succeed! ^^

lets make full use of every second in year 2010, so we will have no regret and the happiest year ever~!!! gambateh!!!

无奈

2009-12-20T22:28:00.000+08:00

许多年来，我一直坚辛的槊造完美的人性，当我以为我已经快要完成时，才知道我只成功的槊造了完美的外表，

内里却空无一物，甚至脆弱得可怜。。。任何一次的失败，就像一把铁锤用力锤在我虚伪的外壳上，不只粉粹了
我的面具，还粉粹了我的心，我的雄心壮志，我的梦。。。残忍的毁灭我的一切。。

我渴望成功，胜利，万众瞩目。就因为我太相信我可以达成，所以当我发觉我越长大就越离目标越远时，我突然迷失了。跌入了无边的漩涡中。。抽身难。

我害怕，害怕在无边大海中，不知何去何从的感觉。。

我无助，仿佛浩瀚虚空，只有我一人。。

我无声呐喊，好像所有的力气都用来驱赶满心的愁雾，再也使不出丁点力气。。

面对与逃避，我，竟会选择逃避，活了这么久，我看这次是心灵上，败得最澈底的一次了。。我真的好害怕永远都站不起来。。

我讨厌这样的我，懦弱，自卑。但我不得不接受，因为这样的我，也是我。。

好想，好想。。寻回昔日勇往直前，不惧困难的我。。

但是，我清楚明白那是过去的我，现在的我只要再站起来，克服眼前的弱点，那我将会更强大。。

唉，知易行难。。人生莫不如此。。

8/11/09 死过番生

2009-11-09T00:43:00.000+08:00

死亡，总是发生在我们最预料不到的时刻。。

可能明年，或明天，或下一秒。。我们无从得知，人类充其量只能够活好现在，掌握这一刻，我们的力量太渺小了。。

今天，在BTCC练习完，回程时，因为太累了，整车的人都睡着了，雄一个人驾着车，也许没有人陪他交谈，在一刹那间，我经历了生死一线间的情形。因为我们整辆车的一边冲上路沿，我坐在司机的旁边，刚好是我那一边，我一回神，就见到路灯柱在我眼前，千钧一发，雄转回路上去，路灯柱和车子差身而过，一秒的差异，让我现在还有机会在这里写blog，分享给大家知道。。 

我没有被吓倒，也没有什么想法，人家说在面临死亡的一迅间，会回想许多东西，但我却脑袋一片空白。。过后，我也没当一回事，一切如常。。也许不是第一次了吧。。

回想起来，那时，只要车子速度快一点点，还是雄反应慢一秒，或少了那么一点的福运，我看我不是进棺材就是ICU了。生死一线间，太不可思议了。。^^

就当死多一次了，应该更要珍惜身边的一切和生命的每一秒～！！！明天，又是我的重生！！！

1/11/09 槟威大桥马拉松比赛

2009-11-02T20:55:00.000+08:00

本来打算今年参加槟威大桥马拉松比赛，因为从没有机会享受在槟威大桥上步行的乐趣。。今年真的好想体验一下，不过昨晚教练跟我们说，因为12月有个体操公开赛，所以21和22号晚上都有练习，哇靠～！！只好取消今年挑战槟威大桥的创举，明年才报名。 >.<

如果我坚持参加的话，那21和22号的行程就会是：
21号 9时至6时整天工作
晚上 7时至11时地狱式练习 ^^
22号凌晨 1时睡觉
凌晨 1时30分醒
凌晨 2时到queensbay,马拉松现场
凌晨 3时起跑
早上8时完毕
9时至中午1时 BTCC训练
3时至6时休息
晚上7时再地狱式练习。。

分析结论是，坚持参加的结果，可能会因体力不支而暴毙。。:p

26/10/09 改变

2009-10-26T23:30:00.000+08:00

在江湖打混了几年，应该更醒目和成长了不少，但是，为什么我总认为，我还是当年的我，一点也没变。。这是不长进吧。。唉。。

这几年，苦是吃了不少，但是到头来，我还是一无所有。。是时候反省一下了，脑袋涌现了美国大选时obama的口号“改变”。这就真的让他给做到了，成功改变了美国的历史～

我也想改变～！！！

今天，上司和我讲了近一个钟头，我不敢说我是茅塞顿开，但是在那一刻，我下定决心，要澈底改变我自己！我从来没有遇见这么好的上司，这么包容，这么了解，这么关心下属。。我如果无法澈底改变自己，让自己在行业中成功的话，我真的愧对他和一路来相信与支持我的人！！

没有妥协的余地，接下来的一年，我要让自己全力接受磨炼！成为第一名！

自负

2009-09-06T22:24:00.000+08:00

自负，一般上是用来贬低人的用词，我一路以来，对于那些自大而目中无人的人，特别讨厌！自负这词更是我时常用于诋毁一些过于自大的人。

今天，我遇见了一个即自负而我又不讨厌的人，他就是我的gymnastic的教练。初次见面，他就让我心里想：“这人好自负”。不过，在明白了他的实力后，我反而觉得他自负的有道理～ ^^因为他证明了他有实力自大。
自负这个词用在他身上，反而可以解释成， ‘不断的磨炼和经历，使他对于自己充满自信，所以自负。’ 是不是变成了褒义词了？

我们时常讲人家自大，我们有否想过，人家凭什么？凭的不就是他曾经付出比人家多的努力，汗水，吃了比人家多的苦，造就了一个比自己还大的自信。我突然觉得，讲人家自大的人，原来是在妒嫉，妒嫉人家拥有自大的本事，怨恨自己原来没有一样的本事可以自大。。。

这就是人的本性，永远只看到和寻找别人的缺点，而没有反省自己，也不愿意承任自己有任何的缺点。。。

～战士～

夜生活

2009-09-06T20:26:00.000+08:00

白天，是我们大家都熟悉的。但是，大家有没有对另一个我们都不熟悉的夜晚而感到好奇？

我从小就非常好奇，为什么大人们总是把夜晚所发生的事，讲成坏事。打架，闹事，许多罪案的发生，都是在夜晚。甚至，鬼怪之谈，吓唬小孩的传说都以夜晚为背景。让夜晚蒙上了一层神秘的薄纱，也许就因为这个原因，有许多人喜爱探索神秘的夜晚可以带来的刺激。

不知是不是夜晚释放了人们的心灵，有许多人在夜晚会变成另外一个人，在夜店内，就聚集了一班在早上循规蹈矩，而在夜晚借酒精麻醉和强劲音浪来释放压力～蒙蒙胧胧的意识，让我们暂时逃离现时的枷锁，工作的压力，感情的束缚，失去的痛苦。。。

酒入愁肠愁更愁，有谁不懂呢？但是，又有多少人能不借酒消愁呢？醉，或许不是解决烦恼的好办法，但无可否认，对某些人，醉，是没有办法中的办法。

逃避现时，那太容易了。但，问题究竟解决了吗？没有，一点也没有。逃避，只是暂时把烦恼放下，只有面对，坦然的面对问题，才是解决问题的方法。

世人，醒醒吧！有那个夜晚是不会过去的？夜晚过去了，黎明还不是会再来？

～战士～

a mentor of life

2009-08-02T23:46:00.001+08:00

Wat is a mentor of life?

Why we need one?

Do we need a mentor of life?

Is it important?

Why we cant just create or live on our own self?

There is too many question which we cant give an answer to.. And perhaps some don’t even have an exact answer for, so we keep finding, by what ever we can learn from history and researches which have been done..

A mentor is to guide, to teach, to tell, to share, to give.. From the first day we begin when first time we open up our eye to see this world, we start to learn and keep searching for answer, “why” is the word which we think the most in our life. ‘Curious’ bring us along, keep us trying and never give up for living, because we keep digging to know more about this world, from day one onward, all of us, make no different, we share the same world, we keep trying on finding the same answer for ‘why we are here?’..

So a mentor is important to keep human kind improving and keep growing, because they keep transfer the knowledge and experience by generation. We learn from teacher, from books which wrote by others, from natural, every thing seem like our mentor.. A mentor is so important to us, he shortens up the path of learning, he helping us to get that knowledge which we want faster, and he led us to the right path of life. But all these, only come if u got a right mentor of life~

Does u have or found ur mentor of life? Who u can reliable on whole hearted and follow his guidance through out ur whole life. He will be a great leader who lead u to the right path~ he is a teacher for life, who teach u how to live a great life and found ur own mission of life, plus he not only teaching, he was applying what he believe. He also act like the closest one to u, like ur father, all he want is to make sure u grow and walking the right path, some time, he is very strict, to make sure u realize what u have done is wrong, but most of the time he care about u more than he care about himself.

To me, I already found my mentor of life who I am going to follow and respect whole hearted with my life. A great guy name Daisaku Ikeda, who I call Ikeda sensei, spending his life to work on world peace, form up a nation wide society SGI, his guidance help and support millions of people life each day, he is the one who make miracle happen. I am glad that I have a chance to be a disciple of him, he is using his life and all he done to told the whole world how a normal person can do if he want, I have no doubt that I am going to follow and achieve our belief! My mentor, will always in my heart. His teaching will always in my mind. His belief, is always mine belief~

a mentor of life

2009-08-02T23:46:00.000+08:00

hobby~

2009-07-26T20:02:00.002+08:00

every one will have more than a hobby in our life, some people like sport or some things involve more movement and more excitement, some like reading and doing some things more polite. no matter how, i feel hobby is so great when we actually learn and growing while we try our best to do it. hobby really help up, when we have some free time but dont even know what to do.. while doing some thg we like and learn up a skill and can help us to become healthier!

i have a lot of hobby but mostly needed a lot of energy n movement. i like sport, every sport, i like to learn n i like to explore more about it! when i am still a small kid, i already like hiking, run around n i really like to move a lot. then i start playing football, soon i learn basketball, volley ball, badminton n etc.. then i learn swimming,then i have a chance to learn dancing too, but my body seem not so talented in dance, but i try, i try very hard to practice n learn, and i believe every things in this world is posible for us to learn up, its just a matter of time. so i use around 2 years to learn n finally i can dance~!! :) its happy when we achieve some thing that we are not even think we can do it, the process is difficult, but the joy is awesome~ and by learning up a skill through hardship, its confirm we will never lose this skill again! so never give up when u dont know how to do a thing, you will regret one day if you live long enough..

i also join soft gym (mean gymnastic) for 5 years de, from a noob until i know some basic move in gymnastic, its not an easy process, go through a lot of pain and disappointment, fall down thousand of times, but a spirit needed is to stand up and try again, the success is on its way if we keep trying! so i wont let myself easily give up on some thing i wish to learn, because i believe although we are nobody today, with the spirit that never give up and keep improving every day! we going to be somebody one day!

since i was 5 years old,i am really adnire those people who can draw pretty drawing, because i really not good in it, i dont even can draw a proper circle when i reach age of 10. but i learn when people drawing, i stand a side and observe, then i try to draw myself, one time, second, third.... i dont even remember how many time i have practice drawing on my own.. finally i feel sactisfy with my own drawing skill at age of 17. its not easy huh? using almost 12 years to learn a skill.. if i give on the half way, then today i might lose this talent forever, i will never think i can draw in my life.. luckily i try n try n try.. i cannot let myself to give up if i didnt trying my best, because i know i might regret one day in future..

although i have learn up a lot of skill till now, but i also let go a lot of chances i can learn some things new. i know the path in life still a long way to go, we will never know the knowledge and the skill we learn up today, is it we will going to need in future, but what we can do now is try our best to learn most of the things base on our capability, so my dear friends~ never under estimate what you capable to do, and never easily give up on some thing you want to achieve, never stop until the last second~!!! :)

忆外婆

2009-06-29T10:14:00.000+08:00

同一个家，一样的摆设，一样的一天。。却少了一个人。。

我，不习惯这种寂静，不习惯这种伤悲，没了婆婆的日子，我没有一天习惯过…

一个星期了，从上星期日在会馆知道婆婆的死讯，已经一个星期了。虽然不知何时开始，我已经知道终有一天婆婆会离我而去，但没想到，就这么快。婆婆虽已经住院一星期，昏迷了六天，也没想到，连最后一句离别的话，都还未亲口对婆婆说，她就离开了。还记得那一天星期日，如往常一样在会馆过夜，一早起身，就看到哥哥传来的短讯，“婆婆去世了”。原以为我承受得住，但眼泪不由自主的落下， ‘男儿有泪不轻弹，只是未到伤心处’。大家都醒后，也没对任何人谈起，如往常一样练习，直到下午才回家，也许我不想太快接受这事实，还是想逃避现时，我真的真的不想去面对，也希望这不是真的。

在守孝的五天，我尽量使自己忘掉悲痛，但直到今天我也未开心过。

我好想念您的声音，好想念您的笑容，好想念您的嘘寒问暖，好想念您的唠叨，好想念您时常把我宠坏，好想念您的一切一切。好后悔没有在有机会的时候，好好的向您表明心意。

您身体力行，教导我们无数的人生道理，在我心里，您是个了不起的女人，一个人把六个儿女养大，您的刻苦耐劳，教导我做任何事都要按步就班，脚踏实地，不可贪小便宜。您对家务的认真，使我明了无论事务大小都应该认真看待。您对人对事，都有自己正义的原则，让我不敢行差踏错，宗守原则。婆婆，是您成就了今天的我，我却还没有机会报答您。。虽然您曾因为生病或行动不方便而自责，怕拖累我们，其实我们从没有埋怨，因为您为了我们付出了太多太多，我们怎样也报答不了。。

写了这编文章是要把我的心声记录下来，可能也为了宣泄心中的伤感。。从开始写就一直流泪，从这一刻开始，我要从新开始新生活。

婆婆，虽然您已离我而去，但您的一切将长存在我心里，我不会忘记您，我爱你!

improving~

2009-05-03T15:35:00.002+08:00

some time that is so fun when we actually look at those people doing some skill in movie or in a performance, i really admire those people because they got talent to perform, like dancing, singing, doing some sport or movement, n etc. i always wish to learn or own some talent to show to others or can actually perform on stage.

well, although i have opportunity to perform few times a year on stage, but then, still have learn up any skill that own by myself. but recently, i and a few of my soka gakkai members go for gymnastic training, finally i learn up a skill that belong to me~
although have been training for gymnastic for a few years time, but because all the skill is teach by those senior in gakkai n without good facilities, so not really improving. this time is totally different, because we have to pay our own to hire a coach to train 8 of us~ and with the new environment n facilities n also an experience coach, we be improving every weeks~

the feeling is great when we know that those skill n move that we dream for so long, finally become truth~ with current speed of improving, i am really confident that we going to make a whole brand new of soft gym performance in gakkai~ 30th of august we are going to have a performance, we will plan n choreograph a great n entertaining performance to show to others~

not only by then, we can also teach a lot of junior gym to become great gymnast~ then we can actually contribute the best we can in 2010 country wide cultural performance at KL~

busy life~

2009-04-30T22:39:00.002+08:00

having a busy life recently, so i don think i can write blog so often de.. only focus on 2 things i am doing now, also drive me crazy, cant even take a break, if i do so, all things will jam and i am going to be headache when continue it..

mostly my time i use to develop my career, so keep thinking ways to improve my skill and learn to be better. but actually i have nothing to write about my career, only by working harder n harder...

another thing i focus is kosenrufu, mean my Buddhism society (soka gakkai malaysia) not only i need to take care of my members, and also need to upgrade myself. almost everyday meeting or prep meet, training for gym, visit n encourage members.. but really learn a lot, n prepared myself to be a great leader in future~ not only in society also in my career~

by using all teaching and experience i learn in gakkai, i wish to form the best group in my career in Malaysia~!!! with following teaching of my mentor, Daisaku Ikeda, i believe my wish confirm will come truth in future~!

reli good story to inspire all of us~ :)

2009-04-11T00:55:00.000+08:00

年薪10萬人民幣的乞丐給我上了震撼的一課我拎著剛買的levi’s從茂業出來，站在門
等一個朋友。一個職業乞丐發現了我，非常專業的、徑直的停在我面前。
這一停，於是就有了後面這個讓我深感震撼的故事，就象上了一堂生動的市
場調查案例課。為了忠實于這個乞丐的原意，我憑記憶儘量重複他原來的話。
“先生……行行好，給點吧。”我一時無聊便在口袋裏找出一個硬幣扔給他並同他
攀談起來。
乞丐很健談。“……我只在華強北一帶乞討，你知道嗎？我一掃眼就見到你。在
茂業買levi’s，一定捨得花錢……”
“哦？你懂的蠻多嘛！”我很驚訝。
“做乞丐，也要用科學的方法。”他說。
我一愣，饒有興趣地問“什麼科學的方法？”
“你看看我和其他乞丐有什麼不同的地方先？”我仔細打量他，頭髮很亂、衣服
很破、手很瘦，但都不髒。
他打斷我的思考，說：“人們對乞丐都很反感，但我相信你並沒有反感我，這點
我看的出來。這就是我與其他乞丐的不同之處。”
我點頭默認，確實不反感，要不我怎麼同一個乞丐攀談起來。

“我懂得swot分析，優勢、劣勢、機會和威脅。對於我的競爭對手，我的優勢是
我不令人反感。機會和威脅都是外在因素，無非是深圳人口多和深圳將要市容整改等。
“我做過精確的計算。這裏每天人流上萬，窮人多，有錢人更多。理論上講，我
若是每天向每人討1塊錢，那我每月就能掙30萬。但是，並不是每個人都會給，而且每
天也討不了這麼多人。所以，我得分析，哪些是目標客戶，哪些是潛在客戶。”他潤潤
嗓子繼續說，“在華強北區域，我的目標客戶是總人流量的3成，成功幾率70%。潛在客
戶占2成，成功幾率50%；剩下5成，我選擇放棄，因為我沒有足夠的時間在他們身上碰
運氣。”
“那你是怎樣定義你的客戶呢？”我追問。
“首先，目標客戶。就像你這樣的年輕先生，有經濟基礎，出手大方。另外還有
那些情侶也屬於我的目標客戶，他們為了在異性面前不丟面子也會大方施捨。其次，我
把獨自一人的漂亮女孩看作潛在客戶，因為她們害怕糾纏，所以多數會花錢免災。這兩
類群體，年齡都控制在20~30歲。年齡太小，沒什麼經濟基礎；年齡太大，可能已結婚
，財政大權掌握在老婆手中。這類人，根本沒戲，恨不得反過來找我要錢。”
“那你每天能討多少錢。”我繼續問。
“週一到週五，生意差點，兩百塊左右吧。週末，甚至可以討到四、五百。”
“這麼多？”
見我有些懷疑，他給我算了一筆帳。“和你們一樣，我也是每天工作8小時，上午
11點到晚上7點，週末正常上班。我每乞討1次的時間大概為5秒鐘，扣除來回走動和搜
索目標的時間，大概1分鐘乞討1次得1塊錢，8個小時就是480塊，再乘以成功幾率
60%[（70%+50%）÷2]，得到將近300塊。”
“千萬不能黏著客戶滿街跑。如果乞討不成，我決不死纏濫打。因為他若肯給錢
的話早就給了，所以就算腆著臉糾纏，成功的機會還是很小。不能將有限的時間浪費在
無施捨欲望的客戶身上，不如轉而尋找下一個目標。”
強！這個乞丐聽上去真不可貌相，倒像是一位資深的市場行銷總監。
“你接著說。”我更感興趣了，看來今天能學到新的東西了。
“有人說做乞丐是靠運氣吃飯，我不以然。給你舉個例子，女人世界門口，一個
帥氣的男生，一個漂亮的女孩，你選哪一個乞討？”
我想了想，說不知道。
“你應該去男的那兒。身邊就是美女，他不好意思不給。但你要去了女的那邊，
她大可假裝害怕你遠遠地躲開。”
“再給你舉個例子。那天cocopark門口，一個年輕女孩，拿著一個購物袋，剛買
完東西；還有一對青年男女，吃著霜淇淋；第三個是衣著考究的年輕男子，拿著筆記本
包。我看一個人只要3秒鐘，我毫不猶豫地走到女孩面前乞討。女孩在袋子裏掏出兩
個硬幣扔給我，並奇怪我為什麼只找她乞討。我回答說，那對情侶，在吃東西，不方便
掏錢；那個男的是高級白領，身上可能沒有零錢；你剛從超市買東西出來，身上肯定有
零錢。”
有道理！我越聽越有意思。
“所以我說，知識決定一切！”我聽十幾個總裁講過這句話，第一次聽乞丐也這
麼說。
“要用科學的方法來乞討。天天躺在天橋上，怎麼能討到錢？走天橋的都是行色
匆匆的路人，誰沒事走天橋玩，爬上爬下的多累。要用知識武裝自己，學習知識可以把
一個人變得很聰明，聰明的人不斷學習知識就可以變成人才。21世紀最需要的是什麼？
就是人才。”
“有一次，一人給我50塊錢，讓我替他在樓下喊‘安紅，我想你’，喊100聲。我
一合計，喊一聲得花5秒鐘，跟我乞討一次花費的時間相當，所得的酬勞才5毛錢，於是
我拒絕了他。”
“在深圳，一般一個乞丐每月能討個千兒八百。運氣好時的大概兩千多點。全深
圳十萬個乞丐，大概只有十個乞丐，每月能討到一萬以上。我就是這萬里挑一中的一個
而且很穩定，基本不會有很大的波動。”
太強了！我越發佩服這個乞丐了。
“我常說我是一個快樂的乞丐。其他乞丐說是因為我討的錢多，所以快樂。我對
他們說，你們正好錯了。正是因為我有快樂、積極的心態，所以討的錢多。”
說的多好啊！
“乞討就是我的工作，要懂得體味工作帶來的樂趣。雨天人流稀少的時候，其他
乞丐都在抱怨或者睡覺。千萬不要這樣，用心感受一下這坐城市的美。晚上下班後帶著
老婆孩子逛街玩耍看夜景，一家三口其樂融融，也不枉此生了。若是碰到同行，有時也
會扔個硬幣，看著他們高興的道謝走開，就仿佛看見自己的身影。”
“你還有老婆孩子？”我不禁大聲讚歎，引來路人側目。
“我老婆在家做全職太太，孩子念小學。我在福田區分期了一套房，十年分期，
還差六年就還清了。我要努力掙錢，供我兒子讀大學念市場行銷專業，然後子承父業當
一個比我更出色的乞丐。”
“我5年前在微硬中華大區做市場策劃，2年前升為行銷經理，月薪5千。那時分期
了一台1萬多的三星筆記本，每個月還款2千，要死要活的。後來我想這樣永遠也出不了
頭，就辭職不幹了，下海來做乞丐，我願意做一個高素質的乞丐。”
聽完，我激動地說：“你有沒有興趣收我做徒弟……

hiking~ muka head n pantai kerajut~

2009-03-07T22:37:00.002+08:00

today wake up so damn early because need to prepare myself go hiking.. last night overnight at frenz house because need to wake up so early n follow my fren family n other go pantai kerajut~ i fall asleep nearly 4am, then wake up at 545am, so blur...

then go mc d eat breakfast, i really 'kagum' mc d boss, they really know how to extend their business, doing promotion, 24 hours service provided, breakfast+lunch+dinner serve, music+air-condition, coffee+milo n etc.. wow~ u can find every thg here, relax n having meal, so nice concept~ ops, sorry, out of topic...

after breakfast, begin our journey for hiking, go muka head at first then turn back n go pantai kerajut, take a long time n having fun, not really tough although i not exercise so often, still manage to finish the whole journey~ its fun wen a bunch of people walk n rest n chat n take photo together. quite fun n this is my first time visit here~

actually nothing can do at pantai kerajut, jz relax n really nothing can do.. all these places is actually a natural gift given by god to malaysia n penang, only our government donno how to manage it n take care of it.. this is y, v have all natural resources n still, our people r poor.. so sad but this is truth..

enjoy n very relaxing when d wind blow, the salt in the wind, let us know that v r so close to the sea~ n wen the time i close my eye n listen to the wave sound, feel so good but only thing not so nice is, feel so hot there~ may be foreigner like to explore under the sun, but i really don like it~ :)

Never Give Up easily..

2009-03-07T21:49:00.002+08:00

recently, heard my frenz told me that they not doing well in their final exam or final assignment, some need to resit and some also wan to give up...

so i just wish to express my feeling here, this is my personal opinion: i think that if we already spend so much of our time, work so hard and suffer alot these years of study~ its not easy.. so please don easily give up.. there is only few months left n few paper to go or few assignment to finish, compare to our life time challenges, now is only the beginning... n remember, none of us know what going to happen tomorrow, who know tomorrow might be the best day in our life? :)

there is a lot of tougher n harder challenges are waiting us in future, if today, v defeat by an obstacle that stopping us to advance further, mean v already give up to try for any challenge in future.

when obstacle or challenges is occur, there must be a reason that's y u face it, every body facing different challenge in our life, only by trying our best to overcome it, then u will realize y v will face the obstacle, n for sure, v will learn some thing from it. this is call growing up~

without trying our best to overcome any obstacle, mean give up... trying our best mean fight die die for it~ victory come always by effort that had been made... so don look down on what u r doing today, every journey start til finish is only a combination of every small step tat v had made.

appreciate wat u got today n work hard for tomorrow, nothing will be wasted, n remember~ don ever GIVE UP~! because life is long enough to prove to u tat those decision v made today are correct or not, don let ourselves regret in future~!!!

guys n girls~ fight die die for ur goal n never walk away with nothing before u try ur best to get it~!!! cheers~:)

燙傷處理新法

2009-03-04T01:40:00.001+08:00

★未破皮處之燙傷處理（熱水、熱湯、熱油、摩托車煙管、蒸氣燙傷）

燒傷如果沒有馬上降溫與止痛，未來的辛路歷程是可想而知。當燙傷時第一時間不是很痛，是因為身體有百分之0.9的鹽繼續吸皮膚發炎的熱而變成越來越灼熱痛，我們用鹽把熱吸過去就不痛了，因為鹽有吸熱和滲透的特性，民俗廟會過火撒鹽就是這個原理。

我向一位年長的婦女說燙傷須馬上泡冰鹽水：有一次她跌倒整隻手掌插入熱油鍋裡，她整隻手掌藏入鹽堆裡，結果手心手背都好了，指縫起水泡是因為沒有把手指頭張開，還高興的向我說謝謝。

像一般家庭小燙傷：沖水後用很厚的鹽再用濕的面紙敷蓋，偶爾加水！！只要離開鹽不痛約三小時就好了，不需敷藥也沒有留下疤痕。（皮膚未破皮才可用大量的鹽）。

just a sharing, hope every body know more about some useful knowledge which can help us in daily life~

touching~ sharing

2009-03-01T21:59:00.000+08:00

在美國的加州有一個小女孩大約是 4 歲

她的父親有一台大卡車，她的父親非常喜歡那台卡車

總是為那台車做全套的保養，以保持卡車的美觀

一天，小女孩拿著硬物在他父親的卡車鈑金上劃下了無數的刮痕 !!

她的父親盛怒之下，用鐵絲把小女孩的手綁起來
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然後吊著小女孩的手，讓她站在車庫罰站

當父親想起小女兒在車庫罰站時，已經是 4個小時過後了！
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趕到車庫時，小女孩的手已經被鐵絲綁的血液不通!

父親送她到急診室時，已經需要截去小女孩的手掌了

因為，手掌部分的組織已經都壞死，如不截去手掌 ...
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她生命是非常危險，甚至可能會危害到小女孩的生命 ...

所以小女孩就這樣失去了她的一雙手掌了 !

但是她不懂 ..... 她不懂到底是發生了什麼事在她的身上 ....

而她的父親也因為這樣感到萬分的愧疚 !
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過了約半年後

小女孩的父親的卡車進廠重新烤漆，又像全新的一樣!!

當他把卡車開回家後，小女孩看著重新烤漆過的卡車

對著她的父親說

{{Daddy~your truck looking so pretty,same like new truck.}}
<<爸爸 ! 你的卡車好漂亮唷！看起來就像是新卡車>>

這時小女孩無邪的伸出了她那截斷的雙手，對她的父親說

{{but, when you want put my hand back to me??}}
<< 但是你什麼時候要把我的手還給我??>>

你們知道當那位父親聽到小女孩問他的問題時，發生了什麼事嗎 ?

那位父親在小女孩的面前 ..... 舉槍自殺 ...... ?
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很多人分不清 .....到底什麼是重要的？
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只會無知迷失在自我的喜好當中 ........

就如有些人會去慈濟幫忙掃街，但家事從來不管 .......
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有些人會花很多錢去建廟，但對自己的親人如鐵公雞 .....
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有些人在外面和言悅色，但對自己的卻家人暴躁如雷 ......
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這就是說那個父親不知是車子重要，或是女兒重要呢？
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而遺憾的事..... 世間到處充滿了這些事 .....
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而且就在你我之間 ....

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只要是金錢可以買到的；
都比不上無價的可貴，
請不要吝嗇，多給家人一點愛！

QE2

2009-03-01T21:34:00.002+08:00

last day of February, Dunhil had organize a party at QE2 Penang..

i go with my best buddy, curly, ah beh, wei sern..

nth special actually.. when d time v enter QE2, pretty model from KL all stand at register counter, there is almost 14 counter, really a big event, info from them is Dunhil have invite around 700 people attend for this party n will hv performance n games.. but v r late so 'no games n no perform'.. ^6^

there were so many guys n girls, n free flow of drinks, great music n imported DJ from other country.. but v not really enjoy much.. although v might drink alot.. but didnt hv any mood to dance or hv fun around, because all of them just standing there, drink n shake their ass a bit.. :p may be they care about their 'class'.. so after get ourselves a bit drunk, v just leave QE2.. this is bored.. ask Dunhil stop call it a 'party', just call it a 'gathering'...:)

its also consider a new experience for me.. ^.^

life recently...

2009-02-26T22:23:00.003+08:00

keep working day n night these days~ so fun n i really like this feeling when i really go all out~! so damn tired n just cant think of any thing else.. i feel alive after these days of striving~ more challenges will come~ so fun~

last night go clubbing, hv been a while didnt go there n hv fun, but last night really not fun at all.. although its ladies night, but man were more than girl.. so boring~

boring life~~~ wat can v do? so damn boring~~ haha..

but seem that i m walking toward my goal this year.. have to gain some confident from achieving my target.. really low confident recently, may be receive too many rejection from people.. :) but life hv to carry on~ gambate~

valentine~ achievers night~~

2009-02-18T00:20:00.003+08:00

Valentine day~

every year valentine day i also will tell myself "next year i will not celebrate valentine alone again"

but every year make no different.. this year i been through valentine at KL, because going to attend our company achievers night dinner at genting at 15/2.. so i follow my manager n his wife to KL, n they having their candle light dinner n i become a 'spot light' there.. haha.. so fed up~~ but the food at the cafe really tasty, i been thinking whole night 'i sure bring my gf come here to enjoy the food here~'

Achievers night~

first time i join our company 'achievers night' dinner, quite fun but feel so bad when i saw others people go on stage to get their award n i just sitting there.. n i didnt saw my GSM (manager) go up stage, from that moment onward, i swear to my ownself, i will strive harder, next year, same event, me n my manager must go on stage to get an award~!!!

never disappoint all the people around me again~~ ^.^

狮子座的我

2009-02-18T00:12:00.001+08:00

狮子座，一个博爱和充满阳光，能量的星座，其实狮子座的人很向往爱情，说白了就是狮子座的人最爱的是自己，他要让自己发光发热，获得别人的爱和崇敬，在这其中，他能够体会到这种来自他人的关爱而感到愉悦，于是，他就爱上了别人。。。
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> > 　　狮子座的人很不愿意伤害别人，因为他的内心是善良和充满正义感的，他是重视原则的人，但是，如果他做了伤害别人的事情，即便出于面子他没有说什么，但是其实内心里他会真的好自责好内疚的，虽然别人看不到，但是他的确会好难过。
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> > 　　狮子座的人，无论男女，都很容易陷入一份感情，但是热情来的很快，冷却的速度也快得
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> > 　　惊人。如果他可以对一份感情持续很长的时间，那么恭喜了，说明你真的很强势很有魅力，足以让他对你死心塌地，否则，狮子座这种内在没有安全感又很敏感的动物，很可能从更有魅力和新鲜的事物上找温暖，因为，狮子座的我们看起来好坚强好阳光好乐观，但是骨子里面的不安感从未消退过，表面的自信只不过是保护自己的盔甲，但并不是很真实。
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> > 　　同时，狮子座的人也可以很绝情，不可能吃回头草，字典里没有'后悔'或者'回头'这两个词，因为狮子座的人很爱面子，自尊心比什么都重要，一旦放弃了或者决定了，就不可能回过头去改变，狮子座的人也很怕被伤害。宁可错过一份感情，宁可放弃。宁可不要，也不会冒可能会被伤害的危险，因为太不值得，因为狮子座的人太爱自己了。。。
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> > 　　狮子座的人喜欢热闹，但是也很享受孤独，他可以把这两者之间搞得很平衡，他很喜欢跟
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　　朋友一起，疯狂的玩闹，成为一个party的主角，但是回到家里，他立马就可以变得异常安静，不喜欢被打扰，他需要自己的空间来思考，如果不给狮子这个空间，对他步步紧逼，
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> > 　　那么他一定会抓狂，变得不可理喻，他还会离开你，因为在狮子的字典里，'自由'和'
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> > 　　自我'这两词的比重几乎占据了全部。
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> > 　　还有，狮子座的人很喜欢新鲜的，华丽的，有质感的，昂贵的，有品位的东西，他也喜欢
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> > 　　朴实，但是却不喜欢无聊和无趣，他害怕一成不变的枯燥，他害怕今天就能预见明天的可
> > 　　能性．
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> > 　　狮子座的人有两种不同的倾向，一种是很喜欢天然的东西，不喜欢过多的修饰；另一类是
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> > 　　很喜欢奢华另类奇特的事物，更多是狮子座是两者兼有．
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> > 　　狮子座的人很宽容，通常不会因为小事而斤斤计较，他们喜欢展现自己与众不同的仁慈心
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> > 　　和获得尊重。对于过往的爱人，狮子座的人很少去探讨是谁的功过是非，无论当时对方有
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> > 　　多伤害自己，但是过去了就过去了，狮子座的人不会去诅咒或者怨恨，因为他们喜欢向前
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> > 　　看。狮子座的人相信，只要自己完美和努力，幸福就在前方，更美好的一定在等待着我们！！

媽媽的帳單

2009-02-16T23:37:00.000+08:00

小明家是經營餐廳生意，有時放學後他會到餐廳幫忙，招呼客人入座點菜收拾碗筷、算帳結帳。
他漸漸覺得自己似乎也成了一位生意人。
有一次，他忽然突發奇想，也開了一張帳單寄給媽媽，索取他在餐廳幫忙作事的酬勞。
幾天後，媽媽收到這份帳單，上面寫著：
１．洗碗盤費500元
２．掃地拖地費200元
３．送外食到顧客家300元
４．至郵局寄發信件帳單100元
５．小明一直是勤奮聽話的好孩子100元
共計1,200元

小明的媽仔細看過這份帳單後，什麼話也沒有說。

晚上小明在他的枕頭旁看到了他所索取的1,200元報酬。
正當他得意如願以償，要把1200元收到自己的口袋時，突然發現枕頭旁邊還放著一份給他的帳單。

小明欠他母親如下款項：

１．在母親家裡過十年平安無憂的生活費用0元
２．十年中，食、衣、住、行的費用0元
３．上學的學費、書籍費0元
４．生病時的醫藥、照顧費0元
５．有一個慈愛的母親0元
小明讀著讀著，感到羞愧萬分！
過了一會兒，他懷著一顆忐忑不安的心;躡手躡腳地走近母親，將小臉藏進母親的懷中，小心翼翼地把那1,200元塞進了她的圍裙口袋裡。

對媽媽好一點

长大~

2009-02-11T21:29:00.001+08:00

从小就希望长大, 因为长大后可以做很多小时候无法做的事。。
可长大后才知道，要做很多事，就得承受很多的压力与伤害。。
小时候，知道跌倒了，要自己爬起来，因为有许多身边的人鼓励～
可长大了，才知道这并不容易，没了鼓励，只多了讥笑和攻击。。
小时候，多大的梦想都敢去梦，
长大了，梦想越来越少,也越来越小。。
小时候，多难的事都想尝试，那怕是受伤了，也感到高兴～
长大了，都还没尝试，就先想到会受伤。。。

为什么长大了，什么都不一样了。。。
是长高了，所以看的更远了？
是人老了，所以更怕事了，梦也不敢了？
是成熟了，凡事都三思而后行？
是胆子小了，还是面对了现实。。
人言：初生之犊不怕虎～
不过，现实生活的残酷真的比老虎有过之而无不及～～！！！

hard feeling~~ >.<

2009-02-09T20:59:00.003+08:00

last night attend my chapter CNY event, quite 're nao'. i m happy that its over now~

after the event i hang out with my friends, donno y, cant really having fun with them, just keep quiet n sit aside.. too many thg bother me, so 'fan nao'..

at last only left me n curly, from beginning i already plan to forget abt this year valentine day, treat it like normal day, but suddenly i wish i can celebrate it with some one.. some one i miss.. so sad.. then tears fall..

in the end, curly n i decided to go teluk bahang dam to relax our mind~ this is really far away from greenlane...

but in the also din go dam, because curly say his friends there also at teluk bahang got CNY gathering so v go for a look although now is already midnight. so because this decision, v force to stay there until 4am in the morning, because if v cant finish the beer there, cant go home.. haih.. beside drinking, then both of us see people gambling..

after all, still haven solve any of my problems, but beer did do a great job by giving me a deep deep sleep.. :)

sharing~

2009-02-09T20:56:00.001+08:00

F A M I L Y

I ran into a stranger as he passed by,

'Oh excuse me please' was my reply.

He said, 'Please excuse me too;

I wasn't watching for you.'

We were very polite, this stranger and I.

We went on our way and we said goodbye.

But at home a different story is told,

How we treat our loved ones, young and old.

Later that day, cooking the evening meal,

My son stood beside me very still.

When I turned, I nearly knocked him down.

'Move out of the way,' I said with a frown.

He walked away, his little heart broken.

I didn't realize how harshly I'd spoken.

While I lay awake in bed,

God's still small voice came to me and said,

'While dealing with a stranger,
common courtesy you use,
but the family you love, you seem to abuse..

Go and look on the kitchen floor,

You'll find some flowers there by the door.

Those are the flowers he brought for you.

He picked them himself: pink, yellow and blue..

He stood very quietly not to spoil the surprise,

you never saw the tears that filled his little eyes.'

By this time, I felt very small,

And now my tears began to fall. .

I quietly went and knelt by his bed;

'Wake up, little one, wake up,' I said.

'Are these the flowers you picked for me?'

He smiled, 'I found 'em, out by the tree.

I picked 'em because they're pretty like you.

I knew you'd like 'em, especially the blue.'

I said, 'Son, I'm very sorry for the way I acted today;

I shouldn't have yelled at you that way.'

He said, 'Oh, Mom, that's okay.

I love you anyway.'

I said, 'Son, I love you too,

and I do like the flowers, especially the blue.'

FAMILY

Are you aware that if we died tomorrow, the company

that we are working for could easily replace us in

a matter of days.

But the family we left behind will feel the loss

for the rest of their lives.

And come to think of it, we pour ourselves more

into work than into our own family,
an unwise investment indeed,

don't you think?

So what is behind the story?

Do you know what the word FAMILY means?

FAMILY = (F)ATHER (A)ND (M)OTHER (I) (L)OVE (Y)OU

成功=坚持到底 ~nice article~just sharing with u all~

2009-02-04T22:10:00.002+08:00

著名的哲学家苏格拉底有一次上课时没有授课，更没有和学生谈哲学。他对学生说：“今天，我要教你们一个成功的的方法，只要你们能够做到，将来一定能成功。”

学生兴奋地回答道：“老师，我们一定能够做到，你快教我们吧！”

苏格拉底说道：“你们现在尽量把胳臂往后甩，然后往前甩。完成后重复30次就能够成功了。”

学生哄堂大笑，他们认为这么简单的事绝对没有问题。一星期后，苏格拉底就问学生：“有谁在这个星期内每天都甩胳臂30次呢？”班上只有一半的学生举手。

一个月后，苏格拉底再次的问道：“有谁在这一个月内每天都甩胳臂30次呢？”班上只有几位同学举手。

3个月后，苏格拉底再次的问道：“有谁在这3个月内每天都甩胳臂30次呢？”全班的同学鸦雀无声，这时，有一位同学把手高高地举起，大声地回答道：“老师，我有！”苏格拉底回答道：“很好，你会是另一个苏格拉底。”果然，这位孩子长大了以后就成为当时的另一位著名的哲学家伯拉图。

长久坚持不容易

最容易的事，如果要长久坚持下去，往往就会变成最难的事。最简单的事，其实并不简单。成功其实并不难，只要四个字“坚持到底”。新的一年来临的这一刻，不需要为自己立下什么人生大目标，也无须有什么宏愿，只要“坚持到底”就已足够了。

人生肯定有无数的磨练和困境，当我们独自踟蹰于黑暗之中，总会有绝望和无助的感觉。因此，我们必须凭着坚强的意志抓紧希望，坚信明天会更好，那么就会达到人生的目标。相信自己，在新的一年内，只要大家都能抱着“永不放弃，坚持到底”的信念，那么不管有再大的困难都能“牛”转乾坤，明天会更好。

2/2/09 CNY feeling...

2009-02-02T19:16:00.002+08:00

CNY celebrating end today~

this year CNY i gambling alot, every two days gambling once, always gambling whole night until morning, conclusion is gambling is not good, not only my pocket n also health.. :)

din get much ang pow, cz go out with frenz most of the time.. go here n there, having fun.. :)

yesterday i am having a great experience at town, there is a CNY event tat SGM was invited to in charge of a title( malaysia caltural city) n a street (acheh road), so i am one of the model who wear malay wedding cloth. it is fun for whole day, and i realise i can do more things more than i thought. i really like the feeling to fool around n having fun with friends..

suddenly have a feeling that want to find a girl friend, i think soon.. wont be alone de.. this year is really a wonderful year~!!! i feel that i can live differently~!!!

cold.. cool.. :)

2008-12-27T22:58:00.003+08:00

going to a water fall around sg ara today morning~ go there 2 years ago, but me n my friends all have no idea how to reach there, because last time v follow another friend go there.. so v just try our luck, go search for it~!!!

finally v found it, n having a great time there~!! the water was so cold, until v not willing step in at first.. 2 of my frenz is photographer, so v really took alot of picture.. a lot of different n funny pose..

cold water, warm heart.. nice water fall, make me relax a lot.. like the feeling go outing with friends, having fun around~ donno still have how much time left when this kind of feeling will stand, slowly grow up, having lesser and lesser chance to go outing with a group of friends.. so i really appreciate every moment that i spend with all my friends~

got to say good bye to 2008 soon.. review every thg i hv done in 2008, its time to plan for 2009~~ not willing to waste it again.. :p

be a marraton winner~!!!

2008-12-27T01:35:00.002+08:00

i hv been training for soft gym almost 4 years, finally i manage to master 'fliback', really happy~!! although i m not that outstanding among all my friends, but i know i am improving every day..

i never worry about those people that greater than me in any field, because i hv a strong believe, once i wish to do some thing, i will successfully make it done in the end. although i might not done it in the fastest time or the greatest way to make it. but i know, i will be success in the end..

just like the story about competition in between rabbit and turtle, i strongly believe if we keep moving toward our goal, although v might not as outstanding as other, but in the end, v sure will achieve our goal~!!! so i know that i m not a winner in 100 meter running competition, but i am sure i am the winner for a marraton competition!

back to soft gym, although i have been training for a long time, finally learn fliback, this is not a great achievement for other, but for me, i feel very happy, because i hv prove to other n me myself that i am improving~ i saw a lot of people give up because of too tired or no time to practice, or stop training because they some thing more important to do.. so i learn a lesson from small achievement of mine, when v hv a dream plus v know the path that we walk is correct, den never give up no matter how, because we will sure reach our detination, its only matter of time..

i strongly believe, i will learn all soft gym skill in future, the only thing v all need to ensure is to improve everyday, nothing is imposible any more~!!! yeah~!!

merry christmas~!!!

2008-12-24T22:17:00.002+08:00

first time after i grow up, i didnt go out to celebrate chrismas eve with frenz~ donno why today no mood to go any where, jz wan to relax at home..

i feel so boring for every celebration also go same places like gurney to count down, wish to experience some different celebration style, but no idea how to do it.. may be next year i might try some thg new~

near end of 2008, these days really down, no mood to do any thg, doing nth at all... really piss off.. feel so sad cz nth much hv been achieve in year 2008.. so must have a good plan for 2009, i don wan to repeat my mistake again~! losing confidence toward myself when i fail to achieve some target or goal i wan, some more people around us keep giving pressure.. feel tired of all these thg.. but life is like this, some time v will feel so down but at last v must stand up n move forward again, never stop too long, its wasting of time..

some time resting is to help us to walk longer journey, but rest too much will actually killing us~
merry christmas to all my dear frenz~!!! cheers~!!!

life is like gambling..

2008-12-21T21:59:00.002+08:00

life, wat exactly its mean...

today, i keep thk of it, although i hv been thinking of this question for a long time, today i hv some opinion abt it..

life is like gambling, if v din do any thg, v won know any result v will get... none of us will know what will happen next second.. win or lose~ but every one of us wish to win every time~

do u know why although most of us lose in gambling, but some of us still continue on it, because once v still hv modal in hand mean v still hv chance to win, this is a hope that all of us wish in life~! so once v still alive, don stop to move forward towards our dream~!!! remember, none of us will know wat happen next second~ :)

so wish all my frenz, don gv up in life~!!! no matter wat the result in this game, but v still hv chance in next game~ chances create by ourselves~

but don gambling too much, because notice tat there is nothing call fair game in life.. haha.. cheers~!!

tired~

2008-12-17T21:56:00.002+08:00

today go alot of place, helping people to do ke po job... not relate to my job at all, but i thk this is a long term investment... go here n there whole day.. sampai tired till wan to vomit, first time experience such a feeling..

i start to feel fun when working hard on our dream~!!! i believe with this kind of action, next year sure can achieve wat i wan~!!!

girl n guy, when v hv a dream in life, v hv to work hard to achieve it~

my mentor daisaku ikeda once say: " if v didnt hv any dream or way to go now, keep our concentration on wat v r doing now, do our best on it, then v will slowly find our way n wat v wan in life.."

so my dear frenz~ don stop n keep find ur mission in life~!! good luck~!!!

i want~~

2008-12-15T23:51:00.002+08:00

recently i have been thinking, what i really want in my life? i kept on asking myself...

feel really weird when i cant really think about one thing that i really try my best to get it... honestly, i din hv any thg tat i want so much before... but now i need to do some changes.. from now begin, any thg i want, i will try my very best to achieve it~!!

few weeks left to reach 2009, make no regret in year 2008 n i will fight die die for wat i want in future~!!! gambate~!!!

RM2... life..

2008-12-14T19:22:00.003+08:00

few days ago, i hv been suffer for financially, long time didnt hv such an experience, almost forget the feeling adee..

in my wallet only left RM 2, so pity, have been such a situation for 2 days, mean i didnt use a single cents in this 2 days, how i going to survive? i have my way, i m use to live in poor situation... but that day, when i need to go out 'cold call' with my carreer partner, chen wei, really pai se to him that he need to pay for my lunch n some parking fee after i give my last 2 ringgit to him... i really feel so up set that why i will be like this, a life like this doesnt belong to me, and i believe, soon, very soon i will change my life to be better~!!!

RM2, this is really an amount that insulting me, why i say so? because i still remember that year i am finding a part time job after form 3, holiday time, so i found a job work at a biscuit shop, that day, first day i went to work, i didnt work in a biscuit shop before so many of the thing i really not familiar with, so do things slow n make some mistake. mana tau, the boss stand beside me all the time and keep giving me pressure and scold me, like i have made a mistake to burn his shop.. then he take out RM2 and ask me to leave his shop! this is the moment i never forget in my life, no one can insult me by paying me RM2 for 5 hours work... but what can i do? my tear fall when i on my way home, and i tell myself i will never let any one in this world insult me like that any more, no more...

i will never forget, the feeling of poor.. izzit i m too kind to always help people when i myself also having financial problem? some time i wonder... but i know all these is worth.. i never regret although i might need to suffer for wat i hv done. :)

target~

2008-12-09T23:17:00.003+08:00

din work out for any target of my life so far..

so now is the time, for me to set some target to achieve, so i hv been doing some arrangement for 2009~ let set some big target for 2009~!!! work on it~!!! i need to force myself to achieve some thing in this coming year~!!

should let some people in this world know my name, know my ability.. if not, even i die tomorrow, none of the people around know me~~ too bad n too sad..

so exciting~!!! a new begin~!!! yahoo~~ ^.^

狂~

2008-12-07T20:39:00.002+08:00

今天在soft gym 练习时，发现只有用“狂”的力量，能发挥不可思议的能力～

什么都不用想。。

什么都不用问。。

下一刻，已不重要。。

下一秒，太遥远了。。

当狂时，那一刻，只有行动最重要～！！！

死就死吧！那股勇气就在心里涌起。。

成功，不也是需要在那样的一瞬间达成吗？

好一个～狂战士！

the dearest women in my life...

2008-12-06T18:23:00.003+08:00

do u know how is the feeling when the most important women in ur life telling u infront of u that she is going to die?

although i know dying is the confirm path that all of us will been through, but i didnt expect this to be so hard...

16 years ago, when my dad past away, because at that moment i m still too small to be sad, but i really feel the sadness when the time i slowly grow up, when i look at others family, i m so jealous... donno how many days n nights, i keep telling myself, if my dad is alive, sure i will live more happily n my mom dont need to suffer that much.. but past is dust.. :)

today, looking at my dearest grandma, this my first time experience such a tough period, from that day doctor told us that she is having liver cancer and they cant do any things because she is too old for any medicine... this is really a hard time for me, what i can do now is only accompany her and each time i saw she suffer, i feel so bad... first time experience this...

today... right in front of me, i know grandma is suffering, not only physically, but also mentally, she really dont wish to bring so many trouble to all family members, she say she is going to die soon... tears fall, but i still need to control and encourage her, no one can share my feeling, no body know how important grandma mean to me... after my dad past away, she is the one who take care of my daily life, because my mom need to work to raise up 3 of us.. so, without grandma, i m nothing now...

this is actually very normal for most people, because grandma old already, sure sick de.. but for me, i rather the one who sick is me, better than i saw her suffer so much n i cant do any thing...

my thoughts~

无名英雄

学而知不足

pressure

~夜~

坚持~ sharing~

唱很多题目的人•是谁也比不过的

伤人的 话语

sharing~

何谓清明？ ＝ 清澈明亮？

life Marathon..

TNB to sue WWF over earth hour!

上帝的延迟，并不是上帝的拒绝 ------林肯

“為何設皇委會查我？”‧安華感費解

can we survive if we dont talk at all?

mission of life..

future

men's rhythmic gymnastic

girl

don become a robot!!!

mankind

gamble

che 3 outing~

Chinese new year~

awaken~

无奈

8/11/09 死过番生

1/11/09 槟威大桥马拉松比赛

26/10/09 改变

自负

夜生活

a mentor of life

a mentor of life

hobby~

忆外婆

improving~

busy life~

reli good story to inspire all of us~ :)

hiking~ muka head n pantai kerajut~

Never Give Up easily..

燙傷處理新法

touching~ sharing

QE2

life recently...

valentine~ achievers night~~

狮子座 的我

媽媽的帳單

长大~

hard feeling~~ >.<

sharing~

成功=坚持到底 ~nice article~just sharing with u all~

2/2/09 CNY feeling...

cold.. cool.. :)

be a marraton winner~!!!

merry christmas~!!!

life is like gambling..

tired~

i want~~

RM2... life..

target~

狂~

the dearest women in my life...

伤人的话语

何谓清明？＝清澈明亮？

狮子座的我