mankind

this post not represent all man in this world, i only express my feeling toward myself.. ^^

when i saw a pretty girl, i hope i can be her boy friend(almost every time~ ) if i didn't take any action to further our relationship, we (almost every time) become friends... then i will meet another pretty one which i can forget about the past n try to be 'friend' with her again~ this cycle never end..

i know courage always play a big role here.. but i tends to forget it when face to face meeting with girls.. love is blind, so i become blind when i feel i am falling in love with some one, but who will going to love a guy with closing eye.. gosh~

conclusion, i fail because i meet, then i think n think n think n think n no action.. so i try to meet another one, then i think again, think again n donno how to take action...
so to avoid this bad cycle continue, i should meet, then don think, just action, action n action~ haha~ then i think love not only make people blind n also making a lot of fool like me~ ^^ haha~

gamble

CNY.. always is the best time to meet up with all frenz n gambling, after few days for keep on gamble, i totally feel sick about it.. i hate gambling with friends~!!!

gamble is a game which dig out our greedy desire, all people become selfish n greedy, gambling with friends is even worst.. because wining friends money make us feel bad, losing to them make us feel worst.. so there is still no win win situation..

for me, gambling always is fun where in the progress, when heart beats increase, when all people start involve in, when there is no way we got to know is it we can win next round, the curiosity toward the unknown result~ there is always so fun when we doesn't know what will happen next~

at last, hate gambling with friends + gambling amount is too small~!!! there is no way i going to gambling with only RM0.10 bet on the table!!! this is wasting my time~ actually i just experience it, and this cost me 3 hours to lose around a ringgit.. its not only waste my time, my energy, my concentration, and this no point at all~

che 3 outing~

every year eh che 3, we fix to have a CL team outing~ ( CL = cheng lan) this year ofcz nth change, we go again for bukit merah~ but this time we go earlier than last year, unexpected is CL master oso reach our gather spot on time, because he is the one last year late almost 3 hours to find stupid contact lens shop on che 3~

so we have plenty of time to enjoy all water sport there, this year is different, we invite those CL girls to join us oso~ really different~ some time, gathering n outing will be more fun when having girls around~ (dont say i am chi ko, but this is my and all man's real feeling!!!) ^^

actually i had a stupid desire to met a girl which i met last year in here, bukit merah.. last year i didnt really take action to take her contact, this really do bother me a while.. haih..

but any way, this time the trip is more fun after all~ i play crazily with all those CL guy~

i wonder if i n a girl become good frenz de, izzit i lose the chance to chase her n ask her become my girlfriend? may be LOVE need timing, i missed it last time, now she no longer can be mine.. so sad.. when i look at her, i always question myself, y i didnt take any action last time, why? beside regret, what can i do? i am really a loser in relationship..

keep thinking of her, since meet up with her again.. haih, feel so headache now.. hate the feeling when i miss some one who didnt know and miss me.. may be some one is right, why start it if it wont hv any result..

tired + sad T.T

Chinese new year~

feel so different this year~ for all of u, although nothing much different compare to previous CNY, but for me, CNY become a celebration which i can meet up with all old buddy who not living or working in pg, really happy to hv fun again with all of them~ may be is because old de, so start to appreciate the moment meeting our old friends..
or may be after grow up n working de, so very hard to hv chance to meet up, so really appreciate every moment meet up with them..
feel so relax now, first day of CNY~ after last few night of crazy celebration with friends~ finally can rest n stay at home de..
just now my brother ask me when wanna go my relative there 'pai nian'? i donno how to replay him.. because i really lazy to go out la... feel tired to move my ass out of the chair infront of my computer... hehe.. so weird, izzit ang pow no longer attract me? cham.. ><
plan to rest in 1st n 2nd days in CNY, then start to hv all activities with friends until week end~ cant wait for tat~ ^^