cold.. cool.. :)

going to a water fall around sg ara today morning~ go there 2 years ago, but me n my friends all have no idea how to reach there, because last time v follow another friend go there.. so v just try our luck, go search for it~!!!

finally v found it, n having a great time there~!! the water was so cold, until v not willing step in at first.. 2 of my frenz is photographer, so v really took alot of picture.. a lot of different n funny pose..

cold water, warm heart.. nice water fall, make me relax a lot.. like the feeling go outing with friends, having fun around~ donno still have how much time left when this kind of feeling will stand, slowly grow up, having lesser and lesser chance to go outing with a group of friends.. so i really appreciate every moment that i spend with all my friends~

got to say good bye to 2008 soon.. review every thg i hv done in 2008, its time to plan for 2009~~ not willing to waste it again.. :p

be a marraton winner~!!!

i hv been training for soft gym almost 4 years, finally i manage to master 'fliback', really happy~!! although i m not that outstanding among all my friends, but i know i am improving every day..

i never worry about those people that greater than me in any field, because i hv a strong believe, once i wish to do some thing, i will successfully make it done in the end. although i might not done it in the fastest time or the greatest way to make it. but i know, i will be success in the end..

just like the story about competition in between rabbit and turtle, i strongly believe if we keep moving toward our goal, although v might not as outstanding as other, but in the end, v sure will achieve our goal~!!! so i know that i m not a winner in 100 meter running competition, but i am sure i am the winner for a marraton competition!

back to soft gym, although i have been training for a long time, finally learn fliback, this is not a great achievement for other, but for me, i feel very happy, because i hv prove to other n me myself that i am improving~ i saw a lot of people give up because of too tired or no time to practice, or stop training because they some thing more important to do.. so i learn a lesson from small achievement of mine, when v hv a dream plus v know the path that we walk is correct, den never give up no matter how, because we will sure reach our detination, its only matter of time..

i strongly believe, i will learn all soft gym skill in future, the only thing v all need to ensure is to improve everyday, nothing is imposible any more~!!! yeah~!!

merry christmas~!!!

first time after i grow up, i didnt go out to celebrate chrismas eve with frenz~ donno why today no mood to go any where, jz wan to relax at home..

i feel so boring for every celebration also go same places like gurney to count down, wish to experience some different celebration style, but no idea how to do it.. may be next year i might try some thg new~

near end of 2008, these days really down, no mood to do any thg, doing nth at all... really piss off.. feel so sad cz nth much hv been achieve in year 2008.. so must have a good plan for 2009, i don wan to repeat my mistake again~! losing confidence toward myself when i fail to achieve some target or goal i wan, some more people around us keep giving pressure.. feel tired of all these thg.. but life is like this, some time v will feel so down but at last v must stand up n move forward again, never stop too long, its wasting of time..

some time resting is to help us to walk longer journey, but rest too much will actually killing us~
merry christmas to all my dear frenz~!!! cheers~!!!

life is like gambling..

life, wat exactly its mean...

today, i keep thk of it, although i hv been thinking of this question for a long time, today i hv some opinion abt it..

life is like gambling, if v din do any thg, v won know any result v will get... none of us will know what will happen next second.. win or lose~ but every one of us wish to win every time~

do u know why although most of us lose in gambling, but some of us still continue on it, because once v still hv modal in hand mean v still hv chance to win, this is a hope that all of us wish in life~! so once v still alive, don stop to move forward towards our dream~!!! remember, none of us will know wat happen next second~ :)

so wish all my frenz, don gv up in life~!!! no matter wat the result in this game, but v still hv chance in next game~ chances create by ourselves~

but don gambling too much, because notice tat there is nothing call fair game in life.. haha.. cheers~!!

tired~

today go alot of place, helping people to do ke po job... not relate to my job at all, but i thk this is a long term investment... go here n there whole day.. sampai tired till wan to vomit, first time experience such a feeling..

i start to feel fun when working hard on our dream~!!! i believe with this kind of action, next year sure can achieve wat i wan~!!!

girl n guy, when v hv a dream in life, v hv to work hard to achieve it~

my mentor daisaku ikeda once say: " if v didnt hv any dream or way to go now, keep our concentration on wat v r doing now, do our best on it, then v will slowly find our way n wat v wan in life.."

so my dear frenz~ don stop n keep find ur mission in life~!! good luck~!!!

i want~~

recently i have been thinking, what i really want in my life? i kept on asking myself...

feel really weird when i cant really think about one thing that i really try my best to get it... honestly, i din hv any thg tat i want so much before... but now i need to do some changes.. from now begin, any thg i want, i will try my very best to achieve it~!!

few weeks left to reach 2009, make no regret in year 2008 n i will fight die die for wat i want in future~!!! gambate~!!!

RM2... life..

few days ago, i hv been suffer for financially, long time didnt hv such an experience, almost forget the feeling adee..

in my wallet only left RM 2, so pity, have been such a situation for 2 days, mean i didnt use a single cents in this 2 days, how i going to survive? i have my way, i m use to live in poor situation... but that day, when i need to go out 'cold call' with my carreer partner, chen wei, really pai se to him that he need to pay for my lunch n some parking fee after i give my last 2 ringgit to him... i really feel so up set that why i will be like this, a life like this doesnt belong to me, and i believe, soon, very soon i will change my life to be better~!!!

RM2, this is really an amount that insulting me, why i say so? because i still remember that year i am finding a part time job after form 3, holiday time, so i found a job work at a biscuit shop, that day, first day i went to work, i didnt work in a biscuit shop before so many of the thing i really not familiar with, so do things slow n make some mistake. mana tau, the boss stand beside me all the time and keep giving me pressure and scold me, like i have made a mistake to burn his shop.. then he take out RM2 and ask me to leave his shop! this is the moment i never forget in my life, no one can insult me by paying me RM2 for 5 hours work... but what can i do? my tear fall when i on my way home, and i tell myself i will never let any one in this world insult me like that any more, no more...

i will never forget, the feeling of poor.. izzit i m too kind to always help people when i myself also having financial problem? some time i wonder... but i know all these is worth.. i never regret although i might need to suffer for wat i hv done. :)

target~

din work out for any target of my life so far..

so now is the time, for me to set some target to achieve, so i hv been doing some arrangement for 2009~ let set some big target for 2009~!!! work on it~!!! i need to force myself to achieve some thing in this coming year~!!

should let some people in this world know my name, know my ability.. if not, even i die tomorrow, none of the people around know me~~ too bad n too sad..

so exciting~!!! a new begin~!!! yahoo~~ ^.^

狂~

今天在soft gym 练习时，发现只有用“狂”的力量，能发挥不可思议的能力～

什么都不用想。。

什么都不用问。。

下一刻，已不重要。。

下一秒，太遥远了。。

当狂时， 那一刻，只有行动最重要～！！！

死就死吧！那股勇气就在心里涌起。。

成功，不也是需要在那样的一瞬间达成吗？

好一个～狂战士！

the dearest women in my life...

do u know how is the feeling when the most important women in ur life telling u infront of u that she is going to die?

although i know dying is the confirm path that all of us will been through, but i didnt expect this to be so hard...

16 years ago, when my dad past away, because at that moment i m still too small to be sad, but i really feel the sadness when the time i slowly grow up, when i look at others family, i m so jealous... donno how many days n nights, i keep telling myself, if my dad is alive, sure i will live more happily n my mom dont need to suffer that much.. but past is dust.. :)

today, looking at my dearest grandma, this my first time experience such a tough period, from that day doctor told us that she is having liver cancer and they cant do any things because she is too old for any medicine... this is really a hard time for me, what i can do now is only accompany her and each time i saw she suffer, i feel so bad... first time experience this...

today... right in front of me, i know grandma is suffering, not only physically, but also mentally, she really dont wish to bring so many trouble to all family members, she say she is going to die soon... tears fall, but i still need to control and encourage her, no one can share my feeling, no body know how important grandma mean to me... after my dad past away, she is the one who take care of my daily life, because my mom need to work to raise up 3 of us.. so, without grandma, i m nothing now...

this is actually very normal for most people, because grandma old already, sure sick de.. but for me, i rather the one who sick is me, better than i saw her suffer so much n i cant do any thing...